Coolio

Its not narcissism. its the feeling of achievement. i will get used to it. pride eventually becomes a part of the ego and in usual circumstance, raises your intolerance level. its an unusual circumstance. my tolerance level has been put to extreme test and i am astounded. tolerance to slime and filth, my capacity for pain surprises me. My endurance surprises me. lol, its hard not to feel vain when your actions discover the inherent and intrinsic.when situations coerced and you overcome, regardless if others don't. stronger than ever before. pleasantly surprising to discover what one is made of? very :)
existence has elevated to a higher level. the earth which i stand upon is now a plateau. if i jump to reach out for a foothold upon the mountain and miss, i'll fall back on this plateau. elevation. revelation! it is in my blood.

oh and. its stupid when people lie and think the other person incapable of comprehension. the demeanour of "Oh really!! why didn't you tell me earlier?!!" when you have already given into your insatiated curiousity, discovered and cogitated all there was to ; is highly amusing. specifically when you are the one who initiates the topic. heh. Here you stand. appearing to be surprised. desiring to be told what needn't concern you. deducting any link which you can interpret as importance to furthur fire your vanity. here i stand. observing you and trying hard, VERY hard, to suppress a smile. well.. because the distinction from a smirk is blurred.
*ROTFL!* HOOO HOOO HOO!!! HAA HAA HAA!

yes my dear. you are too smart.


On a still lighter note, my 5 day stay in chennai culminated in a fantastic closure. The people who were tolerant enough to allow a chaos propagating disheveller like moi, took me to the beautiful temples of mahabalipuram. the sculptures are magnificent. magnificent erotica. the sun kissed rocks emanating heat is an apt euphemism for their degree of hotness. HOT. (fuck. i have to visit khajurao.)
The temples and their sculptures are carved from monoliths. Light brown. The entire spectacle of tetrahedral arclike mounds of earth (the temples) and the surrounding earth blending in continuem is amazing.
the picturesque view of the azure ocean while the constant sea breeze ramming your body is amazing. and this when your standing on a singular rock elevated 50ft above ground level.
amazing.

Thereof i headed off to a snake and croc farm. Now, i've ALWAYS had a fascination with snakes. i've been watching all snake shows that come on NAT GEO / Discovery / Animal planet etc etc since i was 10. Needless to say i was mighty excited watching numerous cobras, russel vipers and kraits being milked. watching from a distance of 4ft from the mound of snakes. watching the reactions of others at every cobra strike. clicked loads of pics and videos \m/
I also handled an adorable adolescent python! first off, the thrill of a snake around your neck while the snake bobs around the nape is incomparable. adrenaline pumps out from all corners of your heart. very exciting. simultaneously, cold contractions of snake skin provide for a VERY comfortable massage. i couldn't help smiling :)

snakes are harmless with simplistic instincts. beautiful. misinterpretted by society coz they're "creepy". feared and denigraded. know them better and the fear will convert to excitement. calling someone a snake is actually a praise. what you actually mean when you do call someone a snake, is slimeball. sluglike disgusting. (viola! now you stand corrected!)

coming back to the narration of my amazing trip, i fed fish to around 60 crocs in the same pit. the crocs moved over other crocs like each was a spring which propelled for forward motion. freakin amazing how freakin heavy crocs allow freakin heavy crocs to step on their freakin huge heads to catch food.
Huge aligators. a 30 ft reticulated python. a 5ft white cobra (albino snake. VERY rare). most awesome!

finally, i headed off to a place called dakshin chitra (a view of the south). it basically provides for models of culture local to kerala, andhra pradesh and the like. i saw a potter at his job. curious, with alacrity, i asked if i could too. paid him Rs Ten in exchange for muddy hands and another revelation; I have awesomely skilled hands.
went to a glass blower therafter and blew my lungs out. the glass expounded like a chewing gum bubble. drooping red ball. inverted relfection of inanimate objects with swollen cheeks. abstract, in an arbit manner.

coolio!
all this was done in a day. all lie on the same way. i recommend highly. awesome, it be. will make you wiry.
adieos!